A trip down memory lane

28th Jul 2010 by Chris

Sa totoo lang, wala kang dapat ipagmayabang dahil wala ka pa sa kalingkingan ng pagiging ina ng nanay ko sa amin!

That’s me, imagining the worst line I wanna deliver to the biggest b*tch of them all.. and I’m daydreaming.

I’ve been too tired, and it felt like I’m punishing myself at work.  I needed to attend to some personal matters that really matter.  Today, I thought of throwing stuff away.  Yeah, I like to throw stuff away.  Its a new habit that I have suddenly formed out of the Ondoy experience.  The whole tragic experience brought me to an understanding how life can be short and that there are far too many things that should be experienced.

I lost a lot of things that were very important to me that time.  I’m quite a sentimental person, but in the end, when Ondoy washed them away, I learned something important.  VERY IMPORTANT.  Its that life isn’t about the material things that you think matter to you, but the memories that you have for each event, each page of your life.

Some of the most painful things I had to throw away were books.  Imagine how loudly I screamed when I saw my whole cart of books swimming inside the house!  And it even included my precious yearbook (wherein, I dearly hate the editor for editing my eight-worded self description–as if she ever understood about individuality! Gaaahh, I’m so not talking about it here and now.. hmph!!!).  It had a whole collection of best seller books I haven’t even touched in years, yet I kept promising myself I ever will complete reading them all.   more…

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Tell me its still worth it

8th Jul 2010 by Chris
Things I’ve been missing out on because of work:
  1. sleep, no need for explanation.
  2. rest. yes, sleep and rest are two different things. working for straight 3 weeks is more than enough. rest is needed to bring back your life and interest in work and vice versa
  3. church. i USED to pass by the church everyday to give thanks and pray. can’t even attend mass because of again, work on a sunday
  4. friends. i USED to unwind by going out with friends, my highschool batchmates and newly met friends. they provide me with laughs to ease out my work-induced migraine and stress
  5. family time. i plan out a monthly gimmick for the family to provide them with a stress-free bonding day and to learn and experience something new everyday. guess what, now i can’t even promise my weekend to be with them. no more quick out of town trips!
  6. cat playtime. i USED to go home early and play with my cat, then have a good, undisturbed night sleep together–my cat sleeping beside my pillow.
  7. good dreams. i value my dreams, and the quality of my sleep. now, i have work dreams. :( and some are dreams of expressing desire to be happy and taken cared of

  8. quiet time to commemorate important life events

    - my grandfather died, and instead of mourning, i had to work! even on the day of my grandpa’s cremation! the very next day, was the birthday of my late fiance, and i had to work! i wasn’t even able to visit his crypt

  9. new coding knowledge and practice of it – now that i’m senior, and lead tech, who gets to mentor me? what’s new and exciting for me?
  10. blogging – i USED to release negativity and exhaustion by blogging
  11. reading – i can’t even finish my RD! i USED to read 4 books in a month!
  12. yoga and other hobbies – i allot time for these and happily attend to them.  now, i don’t jog and i feel guilty that i had to attend to them because work requires me to be around
  13. shopping – i haven’t done my own retail therapy in a long time. and having done so just yesterday makes me feel different.
  14. health – since i have been very stressed from the passing away of my late fiance, and work, i have been spending so much for medicines and checkups
  15. HOME – i just want to leave work at the office and leave it there. i want my home to be sacred. is it too much to ask?

is work still reallly worth it, for me?

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To become a woman

26th Apr 2010 by Chris

To become a woman is hard
You work hard to earn your own so you can be independent and self-sufficient
You workout to keep a slender figure, and complete your confidence
You train yourself to be intelligent so you will never be left behind
You join workshops to stay sane and have fun
You remind yourself about groceries, birthdays, special occasions, etc
You don’t forget your bills no matter how busy you are
You pick the clothes you wear to make sure they highlight your physical appeal
You practice smiling because thats what attracts friends and goodness
You moderate your food intake to stay healthy
You pray heartily to thank God every morning and night
You make your partner happy and content and proud all the time
You do your chores diligently because you exercise cleanliness
You make time for your pet and your family because without them, you are less loved
You come to work and give it your best everyday because you gain experience and friends from it

With all these things, though challenging, its always fun to become a woman. I’m loving each day of my life. :)

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To my honey

8th Sep 2009 by Chris

I miss you hon.  I lost my future when God has taken you away.  I grieve because I am lost and my future is bleak without you.  But I strive to be happy now for you are without pain and with God already.

Build us a house there and be there for me when its my last breath here on Earth.  I will be excited to see you and our house in heaven.  Paint it light blue as you wanted to.  Maybe in heaven we can start our own happy family.

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Prayer of Sacrifice

3rd Aug 2009 by Chris

I’ve been busy with ultimately no-weekend weekends.  Busy with all the things that need to be done, without resting for a bit to sleep, have fun or just do nothing.  Everything is about stuff that other people need, and that of which wherein time is of the essence.  Too busy even to breathe and have exercise.

I have been sacrificing ultimately to reach my goals and to help out my family in whatever it is that I can offer help to them.  I do not count the efforts that have not been returned, nor praised.. only in the hope that I would not be spited because of other items I have failed to accomplish.  With all of these pains and hurt, I do pray for more strength.

I’m happy to have heard the Prayer of Sacrifice from the Parish of the Holy Sacrifice last saturday when my mom and I heard mass that morning of my sister’s UPCAT.  It is a blessing to have been graced with such a wonderful, meaningful prayer that somehow replenished my sould that has been running dry of motivation and will power to keep doing what I need to do.  With this, I want to pray with everyone who reads this post.  May we all be blessed with strength, happiness and perseverance to do what is right at all times. more…

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Touched by Forrest

13th Jul 2009 by Chris

I have been sickly since four days ago.  I missed a day of work, a free Monday breakfast and one day with my honey.

My head was aching badly.  I think it was migraine.   It was the longest streak of migraine attack I’ve ever had in my entire migraine-plagued life.  I grew tired of sleeping all day of that Saturday and Sunday, only to still be feeling as bad come Monday.

Forrest Gump

Forrest Gump

For some apparent reason, after drinking 2 Iron tablets and eating 6 cloud 9 pillow packed chocolates, I felt better.  (Only to believe that it was the Cloud 9 chocolate that really helped me).  I was about to sleep when I saw Forrest Gump on TV.   I jumped from my bed and watched it on TV 5.  I think I like this channel more now, than I did before.  They’ve been picking good movies to air, and they had ultimately lesser commercials than the more prominent channels.

Forrest Gump was a favorite.  One of the few movies I have in my collection.  Since I was in no hurry to get some rest, I wanted to watch it.  I really like that movie and though that it would be nice to see it again.  Watching the movie was just like listening to one big lifestory, though seeing it also through the eyes of the story teller.  Its a one-sided story, but it was simple and beautiful. more…

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Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs in 3D

5th Jul 2009 by Chris

Soon after we were able to watch Monsters vs. Aliens in IMAX, we realized that we really should be bringing the whole family along to experience it.  Unfortunately, the next good movie to watch was Ice Age 3 and it wasn’t available in IMAX.. only in Digital Cinemas.

Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs

The SM Digital Cinemas were short of the real IMAX experience.  Although these specially designed cinemas were able to play 3D movies just like IMAX can, the whole experience was really different.  The key factor was the size of the screen itself.  When you do watch 3D movies in IMAX, you’ll really feel like you’re inside the movie itself and would better appreciate the 3D effects just like you’re standing in the middle of the scene.

Eversince the start of this Ice Age trilogy, my family and I, we loved the characters here.  I still remember Diego’s famous “where’s the baby?” line.  Its a story about how different people could stick with each other and share the same needs with each other.  They were a weird pack alright, but they did manage to survive through a lot of nature’s challenges.

This time, it was really different.  The two earlier Ice Age were good, but this one is the best!  I never stopped laughing!  Though we were amidst a nonchalant crowd, the family along with my fiance and my sister’s boyfriend, the six of us were laughing like there’s no tomorrow!  We were but the noisiest of them all! :D more…

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