The lessons we can’t deny

I’ve been through many ups and downs.  But I can say I’ve never been to so much pain and crying in my life as I have experienced in the last six months of my life.  I don’t ever want to go back and reminisce any of them anymore.  With all these things, its still undeniable that things happen for a reason.  If there is just one thing I could ever believe in, there are things in life that we do not choose for ourselves, but they do happen nonetheless, and somehow, even if you run away from them, they have a way of finding themselves back to you until you take it.   more…

(That’s) All I ask of you

My sister was watching The Phantom of the Opera for her project, and I thought I would join her.  This gave me LSS afterwards.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful to keep wishing for a love as sweet as this?  Love is a wonderful emotion.. but when its gone, its an ugly feeling.  I only wish I’m not human enough to keep wanting to fall in love.  Sigh..

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Follow Me

I heard this song yesterday in the one place I hate the most. Must be a long long time ago since I last heard this.

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Out Here on My Own

We have family and friends.  They are always around us.  People surround us.. but in the end, we are really just alone.  When you think about something, its just you speaking.  Its your own voice you hear and your own thoughts you see and ponder on.  There is nobody inside you but you alone.  In your life, there is only one timeline.. your own.

The thought of it makes one realize the essence of being alone, but not leading to “loneliness”.  Its not about being sad that we are alone.  I think its the confrontation of this fact that makes me realize that I can cross different timelines and be a part of other people’s lives.. but in the end its my own that will matter.  And so, I shouldn’t bother about making myself known to others.  Its more important for me to love and know myself.  Its a tough world we live in and everybody is just out on their own. more…

Where are you now?

This is really inspiring.  I just heard the music in the cab on the way to work.  I think its great thinking that everyone we’ve met in our lives are all important.. not to miss those who gave us heartaches and the joys.  Thank you everyone!  Acquaintances, old friends, new friends, former enemies, and new best buds.  If it wasn’t for all of you, I would never be who I am. :)

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With me

Title: With me
Artist: Sum 41

I don’t want this moment to ever end
Where everything’s nothing without you
I’ll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
‘Cause it’s true, I am nothing without you more…

You Don’t Have to be Perfect

Written by: Harold Kushner

The Mssing Piece (by Shel Silverstein) tells the story of a circle that was missing a piece.  A large triangular wedge had been cut out of it.  The circle wanted to be whole with nothing missing, so it went around looking for its missing piece.  But because it was incomplete and therefore could roll only very slowly, it admired the flowers along the way.  It chatted with worms.  It enjoyed the sunshine.  It found lots of different pieces, but non of them fit.  So it left them all by the side of the road and kept on searching. more…

I hear you.. I feel you.

You know I want it too, but its no longer possible.  We both know what’s best for both of us.  Let us go through this like we should.  Just to let you know.. I hear you.  I feel you.  Let me slip back to reality for awhile and cry my heart out of pain.

Song for you

When JP died, at the funeraria, I was sending messages to some of his friends and officemates to inform them that he has just passed away. I was sitting at the office when I felt him beside me. I was sitting in a sofa for two. To my left, he sat and I felt him warmly sitting beside me.

Before, it was awfully quiet. Just me and my sobs, when suddenly, there was music. And this was the first music that played. I could almost hear him singing it out to me that time. And now that I am suddenly awakened, there are messages from him. I get it all the time. more…

Talking to me in a song

Who is aware that I am psychic?  I guess not most.  Not everybody believes so too.

I asked what he wants me to do.  He’s told me in my dreams, but I do not accept it.  He wants me to be free.  I am chaining myself down.  How can I do it?  I don’t want to forget.  I feel heavy of loneliness.  I feel like bending my own fate.  He answers:

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