My Xmas confessions

18th Dec 2009 by Chris

Christmas is not very much my favorite season.  Its the coldest though even without rains, that’s one main reason why I like it.  They say its the season made for kids and those young at heart.  I say its not made for me.

My birthday falls within this holiday season, yet I never felt like merry making.  I don’t really like people greeting me on my birthday, but I appreciate them nonetheless.  I guess its just a preference.  I don’t want to speculate for the reasons why I am this way but for the sake of argument and thought sharing, I’d love to spill some things out. more…

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A love that was in my head

4th Nov 2009 by Chris

I fell in love with a celebrity.

I thought the only way out of pain was to feel joy.  The love was the bonus part.  I fell in love and it took me out of pain.

How could it be that he was physically beautiful in my eyes?  I loved his hair, I loved his eyes.  I loved his color, I loved his physique.  His height, his smile, his voice.  :)   Could you be my angel?  Yes and No.

I came to you at the wrong time, at the wrong lifetime.  You were the stranger I needed to wake me up.  Your love was the strangest of all.  It was a mixture of pain and delight.  I’m like the little girl who was taken by the stranger holding a beautiful balloon.  Struck in awe and obedient in amazement.  more…

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Prayer for enlightenment

25th Oct 2009 by Chris

I am Thine, O Lord, I have heard Thy voice,
And it told Thy love to me;
But I long to rise in the arms of faith
And be closer drawn to Thee.

Consecrate me now to Thy service, Lord,
By the power of grace divine;
Let my soul look up with a steadfast hope,
And my will be lost in Thine.

O the pure delight of a single hour
That before Thy throne I spend,
When I kneel in prayer, and with Thee, my God
I commune as friend with friend!

There are depths of love that I cannot know
Till I cross the narrow sea;
There are heights of joy that I may not reach
Till I rest in peace with Thee.

~ F.J. Crosby

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Uninvited, unhonored

7th Oct 2009 by Chris

It seems to be an attempt to modify the doctrine
of Purgatory in that the faithful are asked to pray for the deceased
soul for 40 days after death during which time they traverse the
natural and supernatural worlds, according to this Russian Orthodox
tradition. Catholic dogma is more clear. Particular Judgment occurs at
death. The soul goes to heaven, hell or purgatory. If heaven or hell,
there is no chance of leaving either, before or after 40 days since
death. Purgatory is not necessarily 40 days for everyone or anyone. It
may be hours, days, weeks, years, centuries, or millennia depending on
the individual person and the attachment to sin and temporal punishment
due to sin they accumulated during life. We do not say the soul wanders
the earth for 39 or 40 days. The soul is judged and goes directly to
heaven, hell or purgatory. They do not haunt houses, or walk the earth
as ghosts.

– Fr. John Trigilio on 06-07-2007 (http://www.catholic-bulletin.blogspot.com/2007/06/40-days-after-death.html)

40 days after the death of my honey, JP Tolledo, many were uninvited.  Restricting to only the closest and wanted by the immediately family.  Why is 40 days a very important number? more…

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Healing The Loss of A Loved One

14th Sep 2009 by Chris

Lord, heal me of this pain and let his memories bring me no more loneliness but joy.

Dearest Lord,

You were once broken apart and You know how it is to be shattered by the loss of a loved one.

Trusting in Your deep love and compassion,

I come to You now to seek healing because I am in deep pain, grieving over the loss of my hubby, JP Tolledo.

Heall all unhappy feelings I am experiencing now.

Let Your loving presence comfort and console me during my moments of sorrow and loneliness.

Touch all the areas of woundedness in my heart.

Give me the grace to see that something beautiful will come out later on, the grace to see things from Your eyes of love, to see the blessings in store for me out of this hurt, to see the victory and resurrection that await me and my loved ones, after all the tears and anguish.

All these are difficult to see right now Lord, when everything around me seems dark and shattered.

But I know that Your love and peace will be my source of strength, my comfort and consolation.

Draw me closer to You through these grieving moments and let me experience the kind of love only You can give to fill all my emptiness and loneliness from the loss of my hubby, JP Tolledo.

Bring me to friends who will keep me copmany and life my spirits during moments of desolation.

Let their presence be an experience of Your loving presence to fill my heart with Your peace, love, joy and healing.

All these I pray in Jesus’ name through Mary.

Amen.

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