The Ugly things

These make me sick.  Just like any other human being on this earth, we all go through different sets of emotions at any given time.  From the highest to the lowest, deepest pit of emotion.  But all of these things make us human nonetheless and I do not hate them.  Still, with all of these said, we must deal with them too.

A week ago, I faced a similar rage I had to deal with.  It seems to me, somebody (or something) is pressing all the possible button-combination they can try to try and tick me off.  Yup, it blew my head away.  But I got back easily.

The uncontrollable factor

I used to dream that I would become a scientist, way back when I was still very young.  Lo, and behold, I would say I had become one!  I was always the person with the logical brain.. trying to explain things the way mother nature has it.  Even life’s circumstances was not unexplainable at some point.  Nothing can deter me from trying to work my way into what fits as “explainable” and “logical”.  There is always a reason for everything.. and when there is none, there is always God (to blame–LOL).

Friday night, I sent a message to a friend.  I got a reply that annoyed me.  Not only did it annoy me at that instant, but “it” continued to annoy me every three (3) minutes since I received it until possibly an hour and a half when I thought turning off my phone would be a solution.

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Smile

The song is inspiring. :) Heard it at 96.3 while I was working.

Artist: Uncle Kracker
Title: Smile

You’re better then the best
I’m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that’s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it’s ok, yeah it’s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you’re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don’t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

The lessons we can’t deny

I’ve been through many ups and downs.  But I can say I’ve never been to so much pain and crying in my life as I have experienced in the last six months of my life.  I don’t ever want to go back and reminisce any of them anymore.  With all these things, its still undeniable that things happen for a reason.  If there is just one thing I could ever believe in, there are things in life that we do not choose for ourselves, but they do happen nonetheless, and somehow, even if you run away from them, they have a way of finding themselves back to you until you take it.   more…

I’m sooo not joining that Legion

It was late November of last year (2009) when I first saw the trailer for this movie.  It was to be released by January 2010.  Excited and patiently I waited to see this movie.  2010 arrives and I thought many would fall in line to see this, and for sure, I have to be one of them.

Yesterday, I was so excited to see the movie.  I thought it was going to be big just like Avatar was and 2012.  Those movies definitely swept everyone’s expectations and filled us all with awe and unchartered appreciation for all the effort put into creating them and putting them out for public’s consumption.  Let me tell you, I did not think that my night would end the way it did after seeing Legion.

Legion is defined an archaic word used for “army”, or a large military unit.  The posters display of a beautiful yet ironic image of an angel–well, at least ironic from the common depiction of “angel” in our religious and social knowledge.  I think this was what made it more dramatic.

Legion

Legion

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Out Here on My Own

We have family and friends.  They are always around us.  People surround us.. but in the end, we are really just alone.  When you think about something, its just you speaking.  Its your own voice you hear and your own thoughts you see and ponder on.  There is nobody inside you but you alone.  In your life, there is only one timeline.. your own.

The thought of it makes one realize the essence of being alone, but not leading to “loneliness”.  Its not about being sad that we are alone.  I think its the confrontation of this fact that makes me realize that I can cross different timelines and be a part of other people’s lives.. but in the end its my own that will matter.  And so, I shouldn’t bother about making myself known to others.  Its more important for me to love and know myself.  Its a tough world we live in and everybody is just out on their own. more…

Where are you now?

This is really inspiring.  I just heard the music in the cab on the way to work.  I think its great thinking that everyone we’ve met in our lives are all important.. not to miss those who gave us heartaches and the joys.  Thank you everyone!  Acquaintances, old friends, new friends, former enemies, and new best buds.  If it wasn’t for all of you, I would never be who I am. :)

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Live life instead

Live Life

Live Life

You Don’t Have to be Perfect

Written by: Harold Kushner

The Mssing Piece (by Shel Silverstein) tells the story of a circle that was missing a piece.  A large triangular wedge had been cut out of it.  The circle wanted to be whole with nothing missing, so it went around looking for its missing piece.  But because it was incomplete and therefore could roll only very slowly, it admired the flowers along the way.  It chatted with worms.  It enjoyed the sunshine.  It found lots of different pieces, but non of them fit.  So it left them all by the side of the road and kept on searching. more…

Living now

“Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion.
What you perceive as precious is not time, but the one point that is out of time: the Now.
That is precious indeed. The more you are focused on time – past and future – the more you miss the Now, the most precious thing there is!”

by Eckhart Tolle

If my thoughts can be contained here..

If my thoughts can be contained here, I would say everything. I would share everything. I would spill my emotions.

What can I say? What can I do? I feel like I want to escape. Live alone and let the world be.

I don’t want to be depressed. I want to be alive, I want to be me. I want to be free. The world has put blocks on me. On me, and in me. I can’t find that I am really at peace with myself and the rest of the world.

No, this is not a suicide note. more…